My Only Fear Of Death Is Coming Back Reincarnated Aug 12, 2010 14:29:40 GMT
Post by Rishi on Aug 12, 2010 14:29:40 GMT
Death doesn't bother me. It's actually the thought of what comes after death that bothers me. Reincarnation. Man, this incarnation is bullshit as it is - do I have to serve out ANOTHER prison sentence here on this ball of shit and piss? Don't get me wrong, Earth is a beautiful planet and my life is decent. But doing it all over again?! HEEEEEEEEEELLLLLLLLLLLL NO. What if my future dad rapes me as a kid? What if I get brainwashed by some asshole to believe in some Heaven's Gate kinda bullshit? What if I'm born in a slum and never manage to escape it even as a grown man? What if... well... you get the idea. It ain't cool. As a kid in a possible future human incarnation, I probably won't know if I'm being raised wrong, if I'm being brainwashed, if I'm being abused etc. So I won't have complete control over my own life, at least as a kid anyway. I don't know what'll happen to me in a possible future human incarnation. Maybe I might get shot in the face when I'm 4 years old! Who knows? I don't deserve that, YOU don't deserve that and WE don't deserve that! NO-ONE deserves that! That's why I'm trying to escape samsara. I'll happily live however many years I'm meant to live on this planet, but I want this incarnation to be my last. The ONLY way I'd be cool with coming back here is if I CHOSE to come back here with the intelligence and maturity of an adult as well as the innocence and purity of a child all in the body of a grown man or some shit like that. And even then, I want complete control over my own life AT ALL TIMES and I ONLY wanna be here for a LIMITED period of time and then leave IMMEDIATELY and PAINLESSLY. And that's REAL TALK!